Im now at the stage of the final closing curtain. When I genuinely couldnt give a fuck about him or his new lady friends. I am no ones sloppy seconds. I have learnt alot this past 3months not only about relationships, but also about myself. I really need to think before falling for the mushy shit: I love you, I wouldnt do anything to hurt you, you have had to cope with alot in you life,you have had to take care of other people with your dad now its your turn to be looked after. Bullshit. There be days were he would funny with me for no reason, ignore texts and act like he doesnt know me. I thought that was just him but basically if a man is treating you like he doesn’t give a shit, he genuinely doesn’t give a shit. No exceptions. If a man wants to be with a women, he will make it happen, no matter what. But now its over what are the break up rules? Right now im still imagining me killling him, so being friends is definitely off the table! Like I’m over him, it’s finished, i hate him, i don’t miss him but then he looks at me and when I see him and his new girl wallposting and commenting eachothers pictures dead flirty I get a knot in my stomach. I still see the person there who hugged me when I felt nothing was going right. Who I spoke to for hours on the phone when I was crying. I still see the person I woke up to on new years day. I still see that best friend I used to speak to everyday and who was there for me. And now i have to look at him happy with someone else. Its pretty shit.
