I woke up one day I just realized he was gone for good — and it was okay.
I was fine, I wasn’t happy I just felt ‘normal’. I never asked for it to be over. Then again, I never asked/expect it to begin. That’s the way it is with life, some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance; but even the most beautiful days have their sunsets. At first it turns you bitter and angry. I guess you wouldn’t know unless you’ve experienced it. It’s that feeling of being totally unhappy with yourself, not knowing what to do or where to go from here. It’s painful and it hurts, but one day it just happens, you just wake up, and that feeling will be completely gone, and even though you’ll have to start from square one, the pain begins to fade, and you realize you’re not hurting that much anymore. There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world; it’s the beginning of a something new. 3weeks ago we all went to town and he made moves on me and saying he just finished his lady friend for it, but I just couldn’t do it to myself. Looking back it’s the best decision I made with me and him. Not going back because now I can finally say I’m over it and have no feelings toward him. He has moved on and is in a relationship with the girl he went out with behind my back. I’m happy for them and wish them all the best for the future. Me? Well I can say I have feelings for someone else. I’ve never been happier. I’ve never been closer to my girlfriends; we’re having the time of our lives. They never fail to make me smile. I love them to pieces.
I’m happy.
I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches. Either it works or it doesn't.
Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been getting on really well with my ex lover, but can you really ever be mates? With your ex, you’ve shared memories that will either make you laugh or cry. But somewhere on the road of parting ways couples one person feels the need to promise to stay friends “because you’re a really nice girl and that” which leads to more broken promises.
One person is usually the heartbreaker, while the other cries over the breakup for weeks, even months. It’s never easy to break up with someone you’ve shared good times with. By wanting to remain friends, it also allows the dumper to feel that their former lover will still be in their life, and they won’t have to miss having them around. So now the dumper can move on with their life with ease, and with the pleasure of seeing their former lover and talking/laughing/joking with them. The person who got dumped, however, has the pleasure of being constantly reminded of the person who ripped out their heart.
As hard as it is to accept, it’s difficult to bring a relationship back to its normal state after having been intimate with someone. You will always have an image of that person naked, and memories of them will always be triggered by the smell of his aftershave, or even by hearing a song that he once serenaded you with. And as thick-skinned as you are, it’s hard to see the person in the same light after being entangled in each other’s skin and sharing a moment of sheer ecstasy with one another.
One person will always feel resentment or bitterness toward the other. And where there’s bitterness, there’s jealousy. The truth of the matter is that it’s hard to be sincerely happy for your former lover when hes just found the new love of his life. It’s human nature to be jealous or resentful when our former lovers finds a new person to cuddle up to, even if our feelings have somewhat faded. It becomes a race of who will find the new lover first, a challenge especially brought on by the person who was dumped. Surely for that person who did the breaking up, the thought of someone else taking their place in the memories that he and you shared is hard, right?
Even if your relationship was completely problem-ridden, chances are that the passion and sexual chemistry between the two of you still exists. It’s a recipe for disaster because it means that every time you get together under this new “friendship” premise, the lust and passion you have makes it more likely that you’ll end up in “one more” night of unbridled “goodbye” sex, for old times’ sake. This brings you right back to square one — how you felt right after your breakup, and just when you were doing so well.
Does it have to be all-or-nothing?
What are ‘The break up rules’?
When a relationship or thing comes to an end what are the dos and don’ts. Over the past couple of weeks me and him have been getting on fine, if anything we have clearly been flirting, I know it’s wrong as I know he has no feelings towards me and I still have them for him, so in the long run its only going to make it more painful right?
1. Destroy all pictures where he looks nice and you look happy.
2. Lie. It’s a lot easier. (You find out he’s gone out with someone and he turns to you and says bet your texting other people as well. LIE. I wasn’t but I wasn’t letting him know that when he fucking someone else. I said yeah but I’m not going out with them. Twat.)
3. Never stop thinking about him for a moment, because that’s the moment he’ll appear.
4. The most important break-up rule. No matter who broke your heart or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friends.”
5. It takes half the total time you went out with someone to get over them.
….And if I never hear from him again, I’ll always think of him fondly as an asshole.
I have a longing to be successful. I feel London is calling my name and i am answering it. Its a place were dreams happen. The place of all places. London is home to the fashionistics. The capital.
Get me to london. I will flourish.
Oh wow, its march? Where have these months gone already? New year only seems like it was yesturday! Ahhhhhhh and one of my favourite days of the year tomorrow PANCAKE DAY! My girlies and coming round to have a hugeeeeeee pancake fest!
MAJOR EXCITEMENT RIGHT NOW! This week seems to be off with a fabulous start….lie in this morning, open my blinds/windows beautiful day, radio on -songs booming and made myself breakfast in bed. Lifes a blisssssss <3
Despite all this, i was informed today by one of my lad mates that my ex is talking about mine and his sex life to all his lad mates. In detail. This just proves how immature he actually is - i shagged her lad and blahhhh (things i would rather not say). Fuck off you chinless bastard. I have never felt so ashamed and embarrased in all my life. However, I cant moan that much at least it wasnt bad. I would feel more ashamed if he said I was shit. The good new to this is that his new lady friend seems to be closely related to a ginger horse/monkey, who seems to feel the need to post sly digs about me with her and her best mate, highlighting her immaturity and patheticness. Who also feels the need to post dead happy status 24/7 about how happy she is with her life cause alot of good stuffs happening….OK WE GET YOUR GETTING IT, YOUR CURRENTLY ON CLOUD 9, BUT COME ON ITS KNOBHEAD, HE REALLY ISNT MUCH TO SHOUT. oh lol.
xoxox
Well what a fabulous week! I had a brilliant night last night with the best people ever!! Camera broke, orement smashed/pva glued back together, picture smashed and all veg given to the rabbit therefore the sunday roast consisting of potatoes and carrots ha!
…..when the rainy days are dyin, gotta keep on, keep on tryin, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, get on up, when your down, baby, take a good look around, i know its not much but its okay….
But last night made me truely realise how much I love my girls. It was when we we’re all dancing and singing with the lads and i took a moment to look around at all my very drunken girls and just felt belonging. Seriously they are all a part of me and I love them. They bring the best out in me and we bounce off eachoher. They each bring a different side to me out. They got me a gorgeous pandora bracelet which I adore! Everytime I look at it, it reminds me how thankful i should be to them. For everything…the late night phone calls, the 4am drunken texts, for their shoulders to cry, for making me laugh so much and nearly making myself wee!
My Kirsten lousie - These past couple of months Ive needed her so much and shes always been there for me. Even though I’ve been a bore and gone on about the same thing these past couples of months. She never made a fuss, well to my face she never. She listens and say all the right things to make me feel better and put a smile on my face. The typical; Hes a knob and You can do better. Which is typical of a best but its exactly what I needed to hear!! Plus the fact its true!!! I recieved a beautiful thomas sabo bracelet and shoe charm off her which Im currently in love with and very thankful for!!! much love x
ahhhhh I just love my girls <3 xxxx
Ive been there before, yes he has a girlfriend and yes he still does. But still hes asking to go out all the time and texting me. I know hes saying it to billions of other girls and I know deep down he will just be using me. But when he does text me and when he says how nice i look, theres a part of me that wants to believe him. I dont know whether I actually want to go out with him or whether Im just using him to get back at the idiot. Im just bored and want something new and exciting. However people had suspected something was going on between us before and the thought of his girlfriend finding out knocks me. Does that mean I shouldnt go out with him again or shall I just risk it
Do you always get burnt playing with fire?
Has had a fabulous birthday! Anna day couldnt have gone down any better! Presents, money, cards, all you can eat chinese and a cheeky dress for saturday, What more could you possible ask for! I plan to spend Saturday with people who I care about so Ive basically invited my year in sixy bar one: knob. Haha Yes Anna! Childish or not he went out with someone a day after we agreed to give it another go and slept together. Seriously how vile. That boy has nope respect or consideration to anyone elses feelings. pft I dont need people like that in my life. I have been floating on cloud 9! oh yesssss! hello mr c and mr h…two of the two most beautiful boys Ive ever seen! Both of whom who I met on two different holidays. Funnily enough both clearly showed a interest today. Fabulous! Jack who?
much loves the birthday girl xox
Im now at the stage of the final closing curtain. When I genuinely couldnt give a fuck about him or his new lady friends. I am no ones sloppy seconds. I have learnt alot this past 3months not only about relationships, but also about myself. I really need to think before falling for the mushy shit: I love you, I wouldnt do anything to hurt you, you have had to cope with alot in you life,you have had to take care of other people with your dad now its your turn to be looked after. Bullshit. There be days were he would funny with me for no reason, ignore texts and act like he doesnt know me. I thought that was just him but basically if a man is treating you like he doesn’t give a shit, he genuinely doesn’t give a shit. No exceptions. If a man wants to be with a women, he will make it happen, no matter what. But now its over what are the break up rules? Right now im still imagining me killling him, so being friends is definitely off the table! Like I’m over him, it’s finished, i hate him, i don’t miss him but then he looks at me and when I see him and his new girl wallposting and commenting eachothers pictures dead flirty I get a knot in my stomach. I still see the person there who hugged me when I felt nothing was going right. Who I spoke to for hours on the phone when I was crying. I still see the person I woke up to on new years day. I still see that best friend I used to speak to everyday and who was there for me. And now i have to look at him happy with someone else. Its pretty shit.
